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1:06am
Fifteen minutes.
A sudden gush of paranoia lingers my mind. My mind told me to stop but I couldn’t. It was a special moment, a very special one. I can’t resist of remembering it over and over. It made me smile and my heart leap.
For 15 minutes I was alone with him. For 15 minutes we looked like a couple. For 15 minutes we talked and shared. For 15 minutes, we were together.
Its like a playing CD on my mind, I kept on replaying the scene over and over. I couldn’t help it but I was so kilig that time. Hopefully, he did not noticed me in a blushed face. Never did I expected we can have that “together” moment- I can’t explain but during that time everything is going in slow motion. It was like a perfect scene I have ever imagine!!! We were walking in the middle of the night and rain poured down! (its not that heavy by the way) I then suddenly realized the pact I made wayback in highschool. (so much for the details..its a secret) My heart leap.
I remember clearly that very night watching my every step. The feeling of you don’t want to take a step any further afraid that the time spending with him will finally end. I had a very light and comfy conversation with him, exchanged some info and figured out we both speak tagalog. I like the smile on his face. My blood rushed again on my cheeks.
My admiration for him seem had returned. I’m not sure if it was just that moment or it really did recurred. He’s taken I know. I think they’re even a perfect couple and I’m honestly happy for them I swear! I don’t want to engage myself for “another” heartbreak haha. I just don’t like to pretend that I don’t have that “thing” with him (i like him 2-3yrs ago). You know how girls are, we have tendecy to get presumptious at times.
Anyway, I think I should often remind myself to be careful. I don’t want to go overboard and in the end hurt my own self. I’m happy. It shows. At least for that span of time I felt “something that leaped my heart”. At least for a while..even for only fifteen minutes.
