if i were to kill..

For goodness' sake! I don't know when will my patience handle it longer..i am severely and torturedly stressed dealing with an a**hole brother who do nothing but makes my life complicated -actually makes our life complicated. I wanna stab a dagger right in his face so that he could stop messing with my life! How I wish. I'll wait till murder already be legalized- who knows, people may come into their senses that after all, we need to diminish wicked people on earth.

You see, this obnoxious and stupid bro of mine is a selfish, self-seeking, self-centered and egotistic moron who might belong in the clan of devil. Argh! I just really hate him to the nth power. If I would be asked to asassinate one, that would definitely be my brainless brother. How
pathetic that all throughout these years I could still barely cope with an evil spirit in the house. It seems that I doomed and tormented with a demon-posessed, insane and ruthless creature. Damn! I just want to scream!! Whew, I am stressing myself again..(breath in,breath out)

Crap. ***

dysphoria

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Often times, you can’t understand the irony of life. Complicated. Topsy-turvy. Chaotic. Simply thought breaking. Hunted by mundane point of view, you caught yourself pondering heavily on situations tingling your ego. In the end, you draw out conclusions seemingly senseless and out of context that continually itch both the mind and heart.

These are the moments you wished you’d stopped living
To mend the brokenness and emptiness
These are the times you want to put an end
To escape from burning and drowning
Asking if there is realness inside me
To finally know what’s true behind every lie
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